What are you afraid of?

It had been 5 weeks since Pankaj ji left for his heavenly abode & I went to sleep that night with a feeling of unfathomable loneliness and immeasurable sadness in my heart!

 "What are you Afraid of"? I saw my Spiritual Guru looking at me with a lot of concern in his eyes.

            "What are you Afraid of?" HE asked again. 

"Guruji I am very scared right now. I have so many questions and nothing makes sense; I see complete darkness ahead, and don't know what to do;"

       "But Why are you afraid when I have always been there with you holding your hand"

And at this point I woke up; sitting up straight on my bed I started wondering, Was it a dream? But it felt so real, as if Gurudev was right by my side.

That same day I went to see my beloved Nitin bhaiya(The world knew him as Rishi Nityapragyaji)

        NItin bhaiya looked at me and asked me the exact same question that I had dreamt about Gurudev asking me just the previous night "What are you afraid of?"

A Whole New World!

On 28 Sept 2021, the world around me came to a stand still!

We all have a focal point in our lives; A husband, parent, sibling, a loved one- for whom we wake up in the morning; For whom we manage to accomplish seemingly impossible tasks, one for whom we think and care more than we think and care about ourselves! 

One day, in a split of a moment - the focal point, the most important person in our lives is Gone! and we are left without an anchor; Left with a feeling like being pushed off a cliff without wings; Left with a bottomless pit of grief in our hearts.

We all have had moments like these where Nothing makes sense. A blank! A Dead End.

And THEN, we do see a ray of hope. A dim light, a reminder! a thought about the reason why we exist. a push to find the purpose of our own existence.

Today I had this exact experience and am prompted to write down this post at this late hour only as a way to ensure that I don't change my mind at the end of this dark night.

This post comes to share about the ReStart of my most favourite hobby of writing posts about my inner most feelings, experiences and learnings!

This blog will once again bring you sharing's about Leaps of Faith, about struggles, challenges and about survival and Hope.

Your support and encouragement, your views and thoughts - mean a lot!

Look forward to exploring together a Whole New World.  

In Gratitude, Luckshmi